At first I struggled to believe what had happened. That initial shock was quickly replaced by an overwhelming pain as I tried to comprehend how to survive without you. I felt selfish being so sad when Hannah. OJ and PJ had lost so much more than me but I missed you so much it was like I'd lost something inside me. I can't remember life without you and throughout my life, along with Hugh, you've always been by my side through everything good and bad. Whilst I still have moments when I burst into tears, I’ve had to find a way to go on for everyone else and myself. I know that's what you'd want! As the days have past it’s become apparent how respected and loved you were by so many people. I was always very proud of you but I’ve been humbled to read the messages from family, friends and those who you worked with! You excelled in everything you focused on and despite all the banter we would give each other, you clearly were the best leg of our Tripod! Thank you for bringing Hannah into our family and giving us OJ and PJ. They are a huge part of your legacy; they are simply perfect and I see you in them. I'll do anything I can for Hannah and the kids. I promise to tell them all the stories I have about you, spend time with them (whether they like it or not), help them experience all the things we did growing up and be there for them in any way I can. Claughton House will always be a home for them as it was for you! I'll never forget you C, never stop loving you. Life will never be the same without you by my side, but you will always live on in our hearts and thoughts. In everything I do, you will be remembered. I really hope that I get to be with you again one day, but for now sleep tight C and please don’t wind Mum up too much. Love you always, J xxxxx